Annoyed

Okay, I am so annoyed with my kids lately. They range from 24 in age to 19 and they all have know it all attitudes lately. I am usually very proud of my kids. But lately I’ve just have had enough of them. We used to have fun, I could be silly with them, laugh, joke. But now I feel judged and misunderstood by them. I am feeling left out of their lives. It makes me sad, mad, and just plain annoyed with their attitude. They don’t have any empathy, they don’t think before they speak of late, and have brought me to tears too many times, and I’m tired and fed up with them. I don’t know what to do, but to just ignore them and not care right now. I just had to get this off my chest. I am so ready to downsize and move to the country with my husband, dog and cat and live a quiet, slow life away from them all!

A quiet house again

Well after having my middle son home for a week of his Spring break from college, I am so glad he’s off on a trip for the rest of it. We used to have a really close relationship, that somehow crashed and burned about January. He broke up with his significant other after dating since Senior year in High School. So now somehow he’s cut me out. He used to call almost daily, sometimes more than once a day. But now it’s a rare thing. He thinks at the age of 2o he somehow knows it all. He is constantly analyzing me and my outlook on life, which I’ve asked him to stop doing. He created a big rift in the entire family. My new daughter in-law is right in the middle of it and has pretty much the same attitude as he does. They happen to be close friends, sometimes too close in my opinion. Anyway, I’m glad he’s off on his grand adventure and not here creating a constant uproar in my home. Let’s just say Easter Sunday was not a fun day for me. 

Blah weekends

So here it is another boring, blah weekend. My husband works a lot of overtime weekends, usually 2 or 3 a month. Great pay, but makes for a very bored me. The weather is blah this weekend too, so that doesn’t help my mood at all. So my day was full of blog reading, web surfing, laundry, and crochet. I never thought I’d say it, but I long for the days when my 3 sons were small. I really do miss those days. At least there was never a boring or dull moment around here. I’m just not used to being alone so much now. I was always surrounded by noise and boys. I’m sure my outlook will change as soon as those 60 degree+ days come back and I can spend a lot more time outside in the yard, or be camping, or on a bike ride or walk with my dog. So come on sun! Come out and warm me up! At least brighten my days!

New start

Okay, I’m trying this again, this blog thing. I got started a month or so ago. But things got a bit complicated around here. So the first attempt at blogging fell to the wayside. So this is a new start for me. I hope it catches this time around.I just taught myself crochet. So I have been pumping out wash clothes or spa clothes like a mad woman trying to perfect it before I attempt something larger. I find it very calming and it gives my hands something to do, while watching a movie, etc.I love to craft! I used to do it all the time when my boys were young. I was part of a group of nursery school moms that would get together once a week or so and do crafts. We would play bunko once a month. We would go to the ocean for a weekend retreat once a year. It was the highlight of my life at the time. I really miss that group and the crafts and the fun times. Our kids are all grown up now, some of the mom’s are divorced, some have moved away, some have just got busy with life. So needless to say we don’t get together anymore. There was a time when we thought it would never end, we’d be getting together every week for life. But then reality sets in… I do see one of the mom’s regularly. But it’s not even close to what we had, years ago. I can’t believe it all started 22 years ago! My oldest will be 25 in August and he was 3 when we started in the Nursery school Co-op. I often wonder what everyone from our group is doing now, and what their kids have grown up to be? I guess I will probably never know.